COMPETITION

A part of me still feels the need to compete.

To prove my self worth. 

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I wish it wasn’t there but it is. 

It’s stublte and sneaky.

Easy to ignore or pretend

But that’s not my way

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When sh## like this shows up I face it head on. 

See it for what it is

Instead of pushing it away or pretending it isn’t there

I step inside

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The journey has been to understand

To have compassion and to transcend

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There is no other way. 

At least for me. 

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My pattern has been this:

I either stand alone empowered and free

Or in relationship and forced to be small 

No room for me to be me

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I am learning another way. 

How to stay empowered in relationship

How to find my voice

To not have to scream, shout and prove, 

Or shrink and shrivel up

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But to stay steady in me when the other is there. 

Trusting that the other won't overpower

That I won't shrink

And that we can lift each other up. 

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Here's to uplifting one another...