A part of me still feels the need to compete.
To prove my self worth.
I wish it wasn’t there but it is.
It’s stublte and sneaky.
Easy to ignore or pretend
But that’s not my way
When sh## like this shows up I face it head on.
See it for what it is
Instead of pushing it away or pretending it isn’t there
I step inside
The journey has been to understand
To have compassion and to transcend
There is no other way.
At least for me.
My pattern has been this:
I either stand alone empowered and free
Or in relationship and forced to be small
No room for me to be me
I am learning another way.
How to stay empowered in relationship
How to find my voice
To not have to scream, shout and prove,
Or shrink and shrivel up
But to stay steady in me when the other is there.
Trusting that the other won't overpower
That I won't shrink
And that we can lift each other up.
Here's to uplifting one another...