Moments like this come up
Where I feel my aloneness
It usually creaps up at night
After a long day, on my way home
I am almost afraid to go home
Afraid to face myself and be
I could busy myself with more “doing”
I could call people or go see freinds
But at the end of the day I’d still have to be with me.
In moments like this I want to push the feeling away
Eat, drink, or check out in some other way
But I no longer do that becaue I know the value in facing myself.
I’ve felt those moments of ease in my own space - oh so sweet.
But moments like this still arise
When I just want to fall into someone’s arms and be
No words necessary, no story to tell
Just familiar comfort and ease.
I remember that feeling
Oh so sweet.
Not sure why my journey has been solo as of late
But I trust that it won’t always be that way
So tonight I witness the panic and come to my breath
Walk inside, take a moment to be and then step to into my backyard
The sky is beautiful and brilliant
The trees are vibrant
And there is so much peace in this space
I am okay. I am alive and at peace.
I chose to write to all of you tonight because I know I’m not alone
We all have to face moments like this
And if in these moments we can stay with the self
Rather than abandon and punish
Our lives would be so much more sweet.