A few weeks ago when I was taking a TT students class she put us in Supta Baddha Konasana.
A pose where you lie on your back, heart center exposed.
She also had us put a bolster under the back so that the whole upper body was lifted up.
The heart center opened even more!
Immediately my body reacted with fear.
My mind wasn’t afriad,
But everything in my body wanted to come out of the pose.
And curl up in the fetal position.
I chose to stay, breathe and to get curious about what was going on.
Tears came to my eyes as I realized my body didn’t like being so open, exposed.
My heart wants to be.
My mind wants to be
But my body is still afraid.
It’s so fascinating how much our body holds.
Last week when I announced the birth of AWAKE
Again my body reacted.
I was so excited in my heart, my mind and my soul.
But again my body held tension - overwhelming pain in my neck-a tightness I couldn’t release.
Again, I chose to stay, to get curious and LISTEN.
Was it fear, anxiety, being too big, too out there, too much?
The reason doesn’t matter
What matters is the response
Just like when a freinds speaks to you…
It’s not really about fixing it or figuring it out - most of the time it’s just about being there, listening and caring.
So as I learn to be in my body more and more.
I realize how much our body holds for us.
How much memory it stores
And how it was only trying to protect us when it learned to tighten
As we practice, we release that memory
We move out of stuck patterning
Awaken dormant energy
And feel new things
So if you ever find yourself crying on your yoga mat let the tears flow
It means your releasing, healing and expanding
And when that happens your one step closer to FREEDOM
Letting go of the battle with the body, the self, the mind
And allowing the heart to awaken and love, love, love……more completely, freely and without abandon!