HAPPY All the time?

It’s not fair….

My body screams.
My mind screams.
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My heart is hurt
My heart is confused
My heart doesn’t understand.
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My adult self doesn’t want to be an adult.
My childlike self wants to take over.
And say…..It’s not fair. 
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The funny thing is, the “anger” is at no one in particular
And yet if I look closer, directed soley at the self. 
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It’s been awhile since I felt this way.
And yet it came up strong yesterday. 
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Not in a thought, an acition or a feeling. 
More of an energy in the body. 
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All I wanted was for it to go away.
To feel light and happy again. 

For isn’t that the “right” way to feel, especially if we are on the yogic path. 
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But I realize that’s its showing up to be seen, to be heard, to be understood and ultimately integrated.
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Recognizing that it isn’t “better than” when we are experiencing joy.
And it isn’t “less than” when we are experiencing pain or sadness.

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Both energies are equally valuable
Maybe not equally preferable, but equally valuable on our journey toward wholeness
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This is my greatest lesson lately.
To not reject the self when I am in a “less preferable” experience
To not fight it or make it bad or wrong. 
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Rather to love, love, love no matter what is arising on the surface.

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So no matter what you are feeling today I invite you to own it - yes, own it - no matter what it is and it is through that that you will come out the other side!!!

Sending love