Anger, Kids, & Acceptance

My son, like all of us, has many emotions. 
They come out in two main ways:
Pure Joy and Intense Anger
It has always been this way.
Since he was very young.
The anger piece been a huge challenge for me, but also one of my greatest teachers.
You see, I grew up surrounded by anger.
I hated it and didn’t know how to deal with it.
So I ran away as quickly as I could when I saw it in myself or the other.
But shoving it down didn’t really work.
It just showed up in destructive ways.
Violent acts to the self which impacted the other.
But having my son forced me to look anger in the eyes.
Forced me to find a way to be with it.
And bring it to the surface.
So last night when my sons anger was rising.
I held steady and stayed.
In the past I would have checked out.
Been angry that he was angry.
Desperately searching for ways to make him happy again.
But I have learned to be with. 
And last night when the fury ended.
The truth came out!
He told me how he was anxious all the time.
Stressed out and worried about multiple things.
And even when there was nothing to worry about, there were he persisted.
Such a sweet moment of connection.
To truly see him.
And what was underneath the surface.
The more I can be with my own anger.
The more I can be with his.
And the gift in that is that it won’t go under ground and show up and self-destructive acts.
It is a journey that will continue
As he enters his 13th year next week.
It is a balance of seeking help from others, listening to him and trusting my own wisdom.
I share this with you because I know anger can be a challenging emotion for many of us.
And if we could find a way to be with it in a healthy way rather than make it wrong or bad we could see what’s truly beneath it and so many problems could be prevented.
One of the most challenging things to do as a parent but also one of the greatest gifts we can give our children is to be with all parts of who they are~ for me it was so easy to love the bright beautiful charismatic side of him and to reject the anger. But as I’ve learned to be with this piece of who he is, his light grows and the struggle lessens.

And lastly as parents can we support one another rather than judge one another when struggles happen.
Sending love. 



Sometimes I just want to scream!

The crazy shit that comes up in my mind.

Creating chaos, disease and strife!

Not real....all story....all fear

Self hatred bullshit

That’s why I love Sattva Yoga Journeys

I get to scream, to chant, breathe and let it all out

Kriya’s that at times look crazy

But the intensity and fierceness leads to laughter and pure joy

Sweet surrender, ease, and letting go

And finally tapping into the heart space

A space that is beautiful

A space that is vast, open, brilliant and so sweet!

I want to reside there always,

But I know the power of my crazy, beautiful mind

So it’s back to my mat for some more Kriya, mantra and breath

Such joy in the practice

So much gratitude and love...thank you

Fear & Wisdom

As I express and fully live, I fear being shamed more.

I’m so afraid

So afraid 

So afraid

I never realized how much

As I get bigger, I get smaller

As I step into light, I see the dark more clearly

As I allow myself to express & fully live, the fear of being shamed grows

Part of me wants to go back

Part of me wants to be small again

Part of me wants to hide

But then the anger comes

I’m tired of feeling I”m wrong

I’m tired of feeling I’m bad

I’m tired of making myself less than

I know what to do, how to act, what to say to fit in

But that’s not me

That is not what wants to be birthed from my soul 

So I move forward on this journey

The journey to my heart

The journey to my soul

The journey to the unknown

Because the longer I’m on this path, the more I know I can never go back

The longer I’m on this path, the less I “know” and the more “wise” I become

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In Love,